Welcoming our 28th year of living this life.
Alhamdulillah, couldn't be more grateful for all the things that are already happen and will happen to our years of living.
Alhamdulillah, couldn't be more grateful for all the things that are already happen and will happen to our years of living.
From the end of 2022, I always feels excited in welcoming the year of 2023 because somehow it feels like 2023 is going to be my year. And alhamdulillah, it did. So many beautiful thing happened in the year of 2023, in the age where I step into my 28 years of living. So much to be grateful of, so much things to be cherished of.
In this year, I feel like I have saved enough from last year, healing from the trauma(s) we had in 2022. So much to be appreciated and celebrated after going through a lot. So much time and chances for us to love ourselves more.
Decided that this year I'm going to make myself happy, celebrating my birthday the way I wanted. Surrounded by beautiful flowers, ambiance, cute cakes, cute outfit and of course some photograph to take hehe
Last year's on 2022, I've been celebrating my birthday only at home, but I ordered some cute cake for me to appreciate myself, because who else would? Right? hehe. In 2021, it was still covid time, I celebrated my birthday sharing it with my little sister who is only a week separate date. We went to Tangcity, ordered some black forest and blowing some candles at a sushi shop where we celebrated our birthday there.
That year I feel like I was so much into being a people pleaser, forgot that I had to make myself happy first before I got to make anybody else happy. I thought by celebrating my sis's birthday, it would make her and my mom happy and seeing them happy would be enough to make me happy. Turned out it was not really the one which made me feel content hhhh but that was okay now, I think. It had already passed, that it made me learn that next year I should be the one celebrating my own birthday, not for anyone but me hehe
Looking back at it now, it kind of reminded me how I spent my birthday in 2020 only by working at project site, even more working overtime. It was sad at that time, because at work no one recognized that it was my birthday and I still should be working overtime while there's another one colleague that shared the same birthday, yet he was able on taking leave. At that time, I didn't know that taking birthday leave is allowed. (wow hiks huhue)
In 2019, I celebrated my birthday in site office at Bali with my dear colleagues. Grateful at that time they still care enough to bought me cake and spared some time to surprise me and let me blow the candles hiks (still grateful for it).
In 2018, I spent my birthday being absent from work and went to Ancol instead. At that time with someone who was special, sorry not sorry but at least I had a great time celebrating my birthday at that year.
In 2017, I kind of forgot how I spent my birthday. But one thing I remember I was busy working on my final proposal, trying my best to graduate from college as soon as I could. In 2016, I was celebrating with my dear college friends, same way went for 2015 & 2014.
Before that I haven't really got to celebrate my birthday. I think that is why, the more I got older, the more I got resources to do what I want on my own, I try my best to cherished this chances I got, as long as I could. Because no one's gonna know what's going on in the future, and the past we can not change it and we shouldn't be mourning about it. That is why, as long as I could, I will keep doing my best and cherishing every small blessings Allah has given. And to that, Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah :)
Enough with the rambles, I think the aim of me writing this post is because I wanted to take a moment to put it in reminisce of how I spent my birthday every year. To put it in a note, as a reminder for me, reflecting of things I have learned throughout the year. The things I should keep doing, the things I should stop doing. The dreams and visions I try to aim, the sweet yet balanced life we all working on. The things I need to improve for myself. But for me personally, to keep reminding my self that the peace, the serenity we always aim and crave of having. It is started within ourselves.
Ah this post should be spiritual and deep as hell, but I think as I get older I kind of losing that kind of senses. But on the other good point is that, now I be more stoic and not easily mourn over sad silly thing. Its good though, even though before being this stoic and not giving a damn, we still have to get through of being super down and depressed. It still happens sometimes, and we still trying so hard to get over it sometimes. The thing is, now we be more accepting of life, be more accepting and be gentle to ourselves. Because after all, YOU is all you got. You is all you need. And please remember, Allah is with us always, no matter what. :)
Birthday cake from our office mate. I was very glad at this year I got to take Birthday leave as my company and colleagues are super supportive. Last year, I didn't get to take Birthday leave as I got my birthday on Sunday. This year my birthday is on Monday and it kind of relieving how we can just relax at home on a Monday morning haha. Then on Tuesday when I get back to office, my colleagues surprised me with this cake. What a thoughtful gesture, I know. :)
Cheers to many more joy and blessing Allah has written for us. Cheers to many future endeavors. Cheers to many adventure and new challenge life is preparing for us. Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim,
So proud of you el, for this long journey.
Thank you for staying through, still and always.
Welcoming 28th year, once again.
As quoted on my tweet (once again haha),but before today ends, let me tell you one thing ya, cantik.happy birthday. 🩵happy turning, 28. 💟i know sometimes it feels scary,but we gotta learn it slowly together ya, el. i’m here by your side.
Sincerely,
yours truly.
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